Are You There God? It’s Me Karen

Yup. After a few days of talking about one of the subjects considered taboo for mixed company I’m tackling another. I won’t hit that third topic, sex, unless I’m divinely inspired. I promise.

I was born a lapsed Catholic. My parents were both raised in Catholic families. My father’s was quite devout. He had three aunts who were nuns, sisters on his father’s side. I think by the time I came along in the 60’s they were distracted by other things and had a bit of bad taste after being forced into church. My grandmother always asked my father if he’d done his duty. Sure doesn’t sound welcoming and joyful to me if it’s a duty. I participated in the sacraments, attended CCD and even did a few years of Catholic school. My early years were the time when the church went from masses in Latin to singing folk music hymns. When I was in high school I attended church regularly with a friend whose mother required that he go. We weren’t angels at that age but we knew church wasn’t the place for shenanigans. I’ll never forget the impossibility hot Sunday noon mass when the priest started bellowing because people were walking out the doors after communion and the mass was not over. I’m proud to say I was kneeling in the pew at the time.

About this same time my father had a conversation with a Catholic monk who he knew through friends. They talked about things my father didn’t like about the church. Confession was a big one. The Brother told my father that just because you don’t agree with parts of the church doesn’t mean you have to have no relationship with God.

I’m not someone who says the Our Father and Hail Mary everyday. I don’t pray the rosary. I do have conversations with God. I think of it like the movie Bruce Almighty where Bruce is hearing everyone’s prayers at once. I thank God for all the good in my life. When I’m overwhelmed I’ll ask him to carry one or two of my worries for a while. Often this is enough to help me calm down and work towards a solution. Right now I’m asking God to show me the light. My people, the entire world if you consider the pandemic, governments posturing in the Middle East, power going out in Pakistan and the strict Covid lockdowns in Quebec, are in trouble. I’m asking God to provide peace to those who are troubled, wisdom to those in power and grace to those that need it. For you reading this I hope you will feel calm as all around you is crazy. Would you join me in sending positive thoughts into the world. If you pray please do so. If don’t can you send good vibes and caring thoughts. Thank you.

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32 Responses to Are You There God? It’s Me Karen

  1. Danielle says:

    Hi Karen, thanks for sharing your thoughts and prayers, I will pray with you! Confusing times indeed. I used to have the School of Yarn page (hope to get it back up soon), am posting from my other account. Blessings, Danielle x

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  2. ReginaMary says:

    Karen, your struggle is palpable and I am with you, friend. I am a praying gal. I love my faith. As I was praying one morning last week, I felt like I was begging for my life. I came with such fear. Then it hit me. Trust. I was lacking trust in my faith. I started to feel peace as I sat there. I mean real peace. That feeling in the pit of my stomach went away. Remember after 911? Churches were packed. All of them. I believe we are created with a longing for a connection with a higher power and times like these, when we can’t bear to look outside ourselves, look within. I am praying for us all.
    Can’t wait to talk about sex, baby!!hahaha!

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  3. ReginaMary says:

    PS. Even if you don’t pray the Rosary, light a candle, sit in solitude and just hold the beads in your hands and breathe.

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  4. nanacathy2 says:

    Will say prayers for you to find peace in the storm, and for the world to be a better place. xx

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  5. Laura Kate says:

    Karen, your prayer is just right. While I am a lapsed Catholic, I will take up your prayer for peace, wisdom and grace to all who need it.

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  6. I’m a former Catholic, not really sure what I am now, just general Christian I guess. But I like believing in something bigger than myself to make me feel less alone in the world. I certainly am joining you in sending good thoughts/prayers/whatever they are into the world, we sure do need it.

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  7. I don’t do religion, at all. Secular, Jewish, atheist.

    I really, really hope that the good guys win in the end. It’s all very scary and unsettling, and I live on the other side of the Atlantic, so I can’t imagine how you guys must be feeling, living there.

    I’ve been concerned since the beginning of this presidency, and I had to make myself stop worrying that WWIII would be started. It hasn’t. Fingers crossed that there is no more bloodshed.

    I’m also a leftie, but not a Communist!

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  8. itwasjudith says:

    I was born catholic but haven’t practiced in a long time. Lately, not because of Covid, I started being interested in it again, and see the beautiful things in it, rather than the bad ones. I don’t pray or have abs te day belief. It’s more like an art action to a calm state where there is beauty and some wisdom .
    But maybe I’m just kidding myself , and god, whichever it is, is a creation of the mind in order to ease the pain and burden of life .
    I know it’s not rational but I’d lit a candle for my mum and late family whenever I step into a church.
    Sorry for the long comment!
    Sending out good vibes and peace “chants” 🌸✨🕯
    Thanks for the interesting series of posts!!

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  9. itwasjudith says:

    Sorry, some words above have fallen victim of the autocorrect feature

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  10. I talk to the Goddess every day, and I’ve been feeling very much as you have – very distraught, lost, frightened. I’m trying to surround myself with light – your posts have helped with that, and I pray that we can continue to stay strong, stay true to our beliefs and keep our wits about us. I too believe that good will win, right now it seems like we’re losing but it’s always darkest before dawn, right? Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers as well.

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  11. kathyreeves says:

    I’m praying with you, Karen! You are right, evil is ramping up, and Satan is throwing out as much confusion and apathy as he can right now. My solution is to spend time daily in God’s Word, and reminding myself multiple times a day that God will punish the evil and save those who trust in Him. He has already written the last chapter for mankind, and Righteousness and Justice will win.

    I don’t know much at all about being Catholic, as I am a Protestant who attends a church whose pastor is actually Jewish. My advice to anyone, lapsed, searching, or confused, is to read the book of John. Bible Gateway offers many versions, and I recommend the Holman Christian Standard Version, it’s one of the most accurate translations available today.

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  12. yarnmama10 says:

    I am not Catholic but I am a Christian. I became a believer and disciple of Christ in my early 20s. I spend every morning in reading God’s words and in prayer. I believe what Jesus said that wherever 2 or more of his followers are joined in agreement in prayer there is power in that. I join you in prayers for the hearts and minds in this country.

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  13. sewadilly says:

    Just my thoughts, with all going on, we hear, we see, many experience — I was brought up Baptist, core values were instilled in me — not to say I walk the straight and narrow. That being said, as years have passed in my life I find my inner strength comes from my person faith and belief. Now many may disagree which is absolutely fine, my faith personally lives in me, I pray many times begging to help me get through another day. However, I do not attend “church”. Like I have told my husband many times, for me, I must have my faith, but I don’t like hearing at “church” the gossip, chatter of who do or do not fit in, who is with who and shouldn’t be or should be — maybe I’m sticking my head in the sand but many times you learn so much about those judging, commenting on me, others etc .. when they are doing same thing but hiding it. Maybe this sounds like crazy ramblings but for me my walk with my faith is precious for me, this is a troubling time for our country. It makes me cry in disbelief — my prayers help me to survive the horror going on. I certainly hope I have not offended anyone. I have my own struggles as many others do. Today, I wish you Kindness, love and caring .. with that as a beginning many times things become much more clear for/to us.

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  14. Everyone needs wisdom and grace. Especially grace, for when wisdom fails.

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  15. chrisknits says:

    Totally joining you in prayer! I find I have to stop listening to the word of men and listen to God. We will get through this, we just need to hold on yo goodness and kindness even in the face of evil.

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  16. Joining you in prayer! I was raised Lutheran and still consider myself Christian, though I haven’t been to church in quite a while.

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