You should know I’ve been having a bit of a struggle lately. Normally I am a glass half full person. I have always been that kind of person. A roll with the punches kind of person. A take whatever comes your way and deal with it kind of person. But lately not so much. I’ve been full of self doubt, worry and bitterness. Not really depressed but I do feel put upon and taken advantage of. I don’t want to wallow in these feelings. I have tried my very best to not dwell because dwelling does nothing but take you further inside, further into the darkness and I do not belong there and I don’t even want to visit that place.
So getting out of bed and doing things is very important. Finding interesting things outside myself as distraction is vital. So Knit Night is my therapy. I go very week and sit for two hours with people who share my interests or the car to get there. Everyone talks about whatever and we laugh. We do sometimes feel sad: “Poor Mary, she’s going to miss her Matthew so.” But mostly we laugh and have a good time and don’t deal with the hard stuff.
Now if you can remember way back when Teresa and I started our sweaters I showed you a photo of the tiny start of Teresa’s first (adult size) sweater. Well she has made wonderful progress! Last night it hit me that it was time for another photo. The yarn is Cascade 220 in charcoal. The pattern is the Basic Seamless Crewneck Cardigan. Last night Teresa said she hasn’t felt like knitting, anything. Oh No! Her mojo is missing! Hopefully seeing the original photo and this photo will give her that little push she needs to keep going. We all need that sometimes.