For as long as I can remember, just over half a century give or take, I have had a running commentary in my head. I don’t know if this is “normal” or if it comes from years of spending time alone. I am an only child so entertaining myself was a necessity. The commentary isn’t a narration of what is going on but more of a continuous stream of thoughts that may or may not be related to what is happening at any given moment. On a day when I don’t feel like a 9 year old discovering physics while riding a bike without brakes down a steep hill, I feel like I’m still 15. You remember that gawky self conscience tripping over your own feet time. Yeah, most of the time I feel like that. So when I’m knitting something I often have thoughts racing through my mind and self doubt tends to be a theme.
Enter the current sock. It looks really nice. The yarn is pleasing and the pattern a fun knit. I really like the way the yarn looks when knit in this pattern. All good things but the thoughts disagree. The thoughts seem to think that the whole thing is some sort of joke. I have cast on 78 stitches to knit a sock for myself when I normally cast on 64 stitches. I have tried to explain that yes, it’s a lot more stitches but the pattern travels around the sock making it a bit narrower than a sock knit plainly. Then the though talks about the heel. It’s a fairly plain heel flap knit with 50% of the sock stitches. It is way more than what I would normally use for a sock. But it seems like it might be fine with the way the leg of the sock is knit. Then the though talks about heel wear and how there will be a hole more sooner than later. I turned up the sound on the TV at that point and began to hum but the thoughts continue. The only way to solve this is to finish the sock and I intend to do that just as soon as I can just to prove that thought wrong.
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